A New Start (Goodbye Everyone)..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xzU9Qqdqww&playnext_from=TL&videos=sfpM0jz0EPQ

Kid Cudi - “Pursuit of Happiness”

VERSE 1:
Crush a bit. Lil’ bit.
Roll it up.. Take a hit.
Feelin’ lit. Feelin’ light.
2 a.m. ..summer night.
I don't care.. Hand on the wheel.. Drivin’ drunk, I'm doin’ my thang.
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life. Getting’ out dreams.
People told me slow my roll. I'm screamin’ out “fuck that!”
I’mma do just what I want. Lookin’ ahead, no turnin’ back.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived it to the fullest.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived and missed some bullets.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat)

VERSE 2:
Tell me what you know about dreamin’. Dreamin’.
You don't really know about nothing’. Nothin’.
Tell me what you know about them night terrors… every night.
5 a.m.. Cold sweats.. Wakin’ up to the skies.
Tell me what you know about dreams. Dreams.
Tell me what you know about night terrors.. Nothin’.
You don't really care about the trials of tomorrow.
Rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat 4 more times)

ENDING:
Pursuit of happiness.. Yeah.
I don’t get it.. I’ll be… good.

(*Note: I know I could’ve used SO many other songs for this matter, but this right on the money. Werd, Kid Cudi’s on a ROLL! Lol.)

Hey everyone,

This is going to be the last I post for a while. If you read my previous entry, then you guys know that I’m going in to the Military. I leave home tomorrow and then for Basic Training on Tuesday. Just so you guys know, I will not be online for a very long time (7 to 8 months at least).
People have been asking me WHY I’ve decided to do such a thing. There’s plenty of reasons for it, but if you MUST know:

1. My whole life, I’ve cared about others.. Done for others.. Made sure that everyone else was happy. Not once have I done something for myself to make me happy. Besides, it’s not like many of them have ever done the same for me. Not that I’m going to stop caring for my friends.. But from now on, I come first when it comes to making decisions.

2. I have been living in the same friggen’ place I grew up in all my life. Seriously, it’s like a trap. No one ever leaves. Plus, the majority of my Family thinks it’s required to live in the same place with your siblings until their all 21. I don’t think like that. I like to travel to new places and meet new people. Being cooped up here playing “Momma/Maid” is not what I plan on doing for the next 7-8 years of my life.
I look forward to leaving… for GOOD this time (I fucked it up last time in 2007-08).

3. I miss having a solid routine. Getting up at a certain time (in the early morning) and having a full schedule for the day.. Thus EARNING the need to fall asleep at night. For the past couple of years, I’ve had no such thing and it drove me crazy (on the inside).
I know, I know.. I could’ve gotten a job or something. But that would still require me coming back to this Hell Hole I currently call “Home”.

4. There’s too many memories here in NY. Most of them bad. ..And most of them in this apartment alone. The fact that I’ve been sleeping in the same bed where 3 of my beloved Family members passed away in for the past 2 years isn’t very comforting.

And 5. Ever feel like you just don’t belong? Well, that’s how it is with me here. To tell you the truth, I haven’t felt “at Home” here since my Father passed 3 years ago. I don’t really think I need to elaborate on that.

I’d like to apologize for those of you that I may have owed Art to or that wanted to do an Art Trade with me. No, I did not forget. Nor was I ignoring you. I hope you guys can understand what I’ve been going through the past few months.
I’d like to thank everyone for their support on this matter. For the tips and advice.. For all your kind words of encouragement and votes of confidence. It’s all very much appreciated. For those of you I got to see (in person) the past couple of weeks, thank you so much. For those I didn’t get to see one last time… well, I pray we’ll meet sometime in the future (I‘ll be keeping my promises too. You guys know who you are ;3). I’m definitely going to miss you all. You have NO idea how much.

I’m looking forward to what awaits me from tomorrow on.
Sucks, I’m gonna miss all the good Summer movies though. XD
And I can just iMAgine how much stuff I’m gonna find in my Inbox when I finally DO get back online.. >>;
Ho boy.. Well, I’m gonna cut it here before I start rambling or get emotional (lol). I’ll never forget you all… *hugz all around*

Goodbye everyone! See you on the other side.

~ BoKo

P.S. - I’d like to give a big “Thank You” Shout Out to Debra E. in Ohio for her kind and encouraging words to me on my Post last week. I will definitely keep your words in mind. :)

Heads-up Everyone.. In 7 Days...

…I’m leaving. I know I’ve been saying this for the longest, lol. Well, it’s about time I let you all know why.
Yours truly joined the Air Force as of late November last year. I am to leave for BT (Basic Training) next week Tuesday.
I’d like to apologize for the lack of Art lately. I’ve been busy making sure I’ve taken care of all important things so nothing goes wrong when I leave.
Now all I have to do is make sure everything I want taken with me (after training) is packed. I’m also hoping to visit all my friends one last time before I leave. I’ll visit my son too (and give him his Father’s love… as requested).
I’m not exactly sure as to when I’ll be able to access a computer again. My guess is mid-November. Hopefully I’ll have new information by Friday. I’ll post another Journal on Sunday.
Until then, l8r all!

~ BoKo

I'm Back (for the Time Being)! :D

So my connection came back a few days ago! Yei! I wanted to say so sooner, but I was trying to wait until I had something to post before I did so. ^^; Otherwise, I’m glad it’s back. No longer do I have to use that other connection or sit stone still in one awkward position in order to check even ONE of my pages. I swear that connection hated me. It go so bad to the point where it wouldn’t even let me connect at all after a point. But now, it’s over (finally).

Now before I move onto what’s happening with me now, I’d like to address a couple of things.
First is FormSpring. I say fuck it. It’s the worst and most retarded bandwagon anyone could jump onto. Seriously? I site where people anonymously ask you questions.. Does that sound right to you? God forbid someone asks you a disturbing or suspicious question… you won’t even know who the fuck did it! Yeah, sure you can ignore the question (and probably delete it), but wouldn’t it still bother you..? All in all, I’m not joining it. I think it’s a mistake and I’m tired of seeing all my friends and whatnot announcing that they have one (with all the various quotes of “ask me anything” or “hit me with your best shot” or what have ‘em).

Second is the iPad. . . . Seriously!? What more junk can Apple possibly come out with after this? I mean, it’s basically just all of their products combined. You can listen to music on it, watch movies, add and share photos and have your contacts on it (iPod/iPhone). You can type on it, send e-mail, surf the web and watch videos from YouTube(Notebook). You can read books (and whatever else.. They probably have an App for it). So what’s the point? Yeah it may sound convenient to some people, but I just find it to be another way to waste money. I mean.. I already HAVE an iPod, a touch-screen phone, a laptop… and if I wanted to read a book, there’s BOOKSTORES for that!!
..I see that you can draw on it like a tablet as well… IF you download the proper App/program. I have a Tablet for that. All in all, I’m not so excited about the iPad. I may change my mind in the future (when I can probably afford it, lol), but that won’t be anytime soon.

Sorry about that everyone. I’ve just been seeing so many Journals about FormSpring and the iPad for the past… God knows how long and it’s been steadily getting on my nerves. So now for the real update. :3

I’ve been basically juggling/working on various projects at the same time lately. I have 3 story ideas I’m writing. 4 (maybe 5) comic ideas I’m doin’ up. There’s old ideas for pics that I have yet to get down on paper at all and a couple of other things I can’t really remember at the moment. So yeah, posting is gonna be slow. I want to have as much done in the next 14 days as I can though. Which leads me to the next part of my update..

I’m also getting ready to start packing. As much as I’d like to get into detail about “why”, I can’t at the moment. I’m sorry guys.. You’ll have to be patient for a little more longer. I’ll most likely spill the beans next week.

Otherwise, that’s really all I have to report for now. Gonna try and get some stuff done today. *hugs to all* Until next time. L8r!

~ BoKo

April Foolz & No Internetz

First I’d like to say: I know today is April Fool’s Day. I log onto DeviantArt and find that my Avatar is changed to some Lady Gaga shit. I immediately think I’ve been hacked and that they think they’re fucking funny. ..Until I scroll down to my Page comments and see that everyone’s Avi(s) are changed as well to things like: “Team Edward” (or something with the sparkly bastard). “Team Jacob” (or something with him). “Team Seeker” (..I don’t even know what the fuck that one’s from). ..Or Lady Gaga. After seeing this, the only thing I could wonder was: “Why Lady Gaga? Why not Team Jacob?” No, I’m not a Lady Gaga fan. I may have a couple of her songs (like 3), but she’s not a big deal to me. : /

I’m not so thrilled about today being April Fool’s Day. I’m literally avoiding everyone’s Journals because apparently, everyone’s trying to be funny in their own little way. I take things too seriously to take a joke most the time. I’ll be glad when this Month is over (yeah, I said “Month”. I can’t stand April).
I was already “fooled” by someone today and once is enough.

Anyway, the real reason I’m updating was to tell you that my internet has been screwy for the last 5 days. It’s been raining since Saturday evening and I lost my main [Ghost] connection. So unfortunately, I won’t be able to upload anything until it comes back and it’s stable. Hell, the finally came back out yesterday (more like played Hide & Seek the whole day) and my connection basically disappeared altogether! I haven’t been able to OC or play WoW… and I’ve got so many ideas backed up.

Otherwise, I don’t want to make this any longer than it has to be. Just wanted to let you all know that I’ll most likely be staying offline until I get my connection back fully. An easier way to solve this problem would be to get a Wireless Router, but there’s no point.. Being that I’d be the only one using it and I’ll be leaving in less than a Month. Besides, I’ve gone without this whole time. I can go another 26 days (or 7 months).

Thank you all for your patience and support. I truly appreciate it all. *bearhugz* So, until next time.. L8r all!

~ BoKo