A New Start (Goodbye Everyone)..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xzU9Qqdqww&playnext_from=TL&videos=sfpM0jz0EPQ

Kid Cudi - “Pursuit of Happiness”

VERSE 1:
Crush a bit. Lil’ bit.
Roll it up.. Take a hit.
Feelin’ lit. Feelin’ light.
2 a.m. ..summer night.
I don't care.. Hand on the wheel.. Drivin’ drunk, I'm doin’ my thang.
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life. Getting’ out dreams.
People told me slow my roll. I'm screamin’ out “fuck that!”
I’mma do just what I want. Lookin’ ahead, no turnin’ back.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived it to the fullest.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived and missed some bullets.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat)

VERSE 2:
Tell me what you know about dreamin’. Dreamin’.
You don't really know about nothing’. Nothin’.
Tell me what you know about them night terrors… every night.
5 a.m.. Cold sweats.. Wakin’ up to the skies.
Tell me what you know about dreams. Dreams.
Tell me what you know about night terrors.. Nothin’.
You don't really care about the trials of tomorrow.
Rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat 4 more times)

ENDING:
Pursuit of happiness.. Yeah.
I don’t get it.. I’ll be… good.

(*Note: I know I could’ve used SO many other songs for this matter, but this right on the money. Werd, Kid Cudi’s on a ROLL! Lol.)

Hey everyone,

This is going to be the last I post for a while. If you read my previous entry, then you guys know that I’m going in to the Military. I leave home tomorrow and then for Basic Training on Tuesday. Just so you guys know, I will not be online for a very long time (7 to 8 months at least).
People have been asking me WHY I’ve decided to do such a thing. There’s plenty of reasons for it, but if you MUST know:

1. My whole life, I’ve cared about others.. Done for others.. Made sure that everyone else was happy. Not once have I done something for myself to make me happy. Besides, it’s not like many of them have ever done the same for me. Not that I’m going to stop caring for my friends.. But from now on, I come first when it comes to making decisions.

2. I have been living in the same friggen’ place I grew up in all my life. Seriously, it’s like a trap. No one ever leaves. Plus, the majority of my Family thinks it’s required to live in the same place with your siblings until their all 21. I don’t think like that. I like to travel to new places and meet new people. Being cooped up here playing “Momma/Maid” is not what I plan on doing for the next 7-8 years of my life.
I look forward to leaving… for GOOD this time (I fucked it up last time in 2007-08).

3. I miss having a solid routine. Getting up at a certain time (in the early morning) and having a full schedule for the day.. Thus EARNING the need to fall asleep at night. For the past couple of years, I’ve had no such thing and it drove me crazy (on the inside).
I know, I know.. I could’ve gotten a job or something. But that would still require me coming back to this Hell Hole I currently call “Home”.

4. There’s too many memories here in NY. Most of them bad. ..And most of them in this apartment alone. The fact that I’ve been sleeping in the same bed where 3 of my beloved Family members passed away in for the past 2 years isn’t very comforting.

And 5. Ever feel like you just don’t belong? Well, that’s how it is with me here. To tell you the truth, I haven’t felt “at Home” here since my Father passed 3 years ago. I don’t really think I need to elaborate on that.

I’d like to apologize for those of you that I may have owed Art to or that wanted to do an Art Trade with me. No, I did not forget. Nor was I ignoring you. I hope you guys can understand what I’ve been going through the past few months.
I’d like to thank everyone for their support on this matter. For the tips and advice.. For all your kind words of encouragement and votes of confidence. It’s all very much appreciated. For those of you I got to see (in person) the past couple of weeks, thank you so much. For those I didn’t get to see one last time… well, I pray we’ll meet sometime in the future (I‘ll be keeping my promises too. You guys know who you are ;3). I’m definitely going to miss you all. You have NO idea how much.

I’m looking forward to what awaits me from tomorrow on.
Sucks, I’m gonna miss all the good Summer movies though. XD
And I can just iMAgine how much stuff I’m gonna find in my Inbox when I finally DO get back online.. >>;
Ho boy.. Well, I’m gonna cut it here before I start rambling or get emotional (lol). I’ll never forget you all… *hugz all around*

Goodbye everyone! See you on the other side.

~ BoKo

P.S. - I’d like to give a big “Thank You” Shout Out to Debra E. in Ohio for her kind and encouraging words to me on my Post last week. I will definitely keep your words in mind. :)