'Sup, everybody?
Here's a random update. I didn't want that [semi] rant up there in everyone's face for too long.. I will give you an update on that situation when I can.
Otherwise, my old Wacom Intuos3 tablet seems to be showing its age lately. If you hadn't noticed, my recent submissions are much lighter than usual. Unfortunately, I won't be able to buy a new tablet anytime soon. I'm saving all the money I can for a trip back to the States in August so I can take my Road Test and obtain my Driver's License (finally).
So any Art I draw from now until I can afford one will be drawn in my sketchbook. If they're decent enough, I'll scan and post them. I apologize for the inconvenience. Please bear with me. ):
Well, that's all I have for now. Until next time, l8r.
~ Katt
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
I Want to Rant SO Badly Right Now..
But I won't. There's no point. Because, unless ranting can speed up 4 months of time, then I'm gonna be stuck in my current situation.
I can't wait to get my Driver's License, so I can drive my-damn-self around. I can't wait until I'm eligible to move out of the Dorms, so I can [maybe] FINALLY get the space I need to clear my head. So I can finally get some drawing done without feeling fucking guilty about what I draw around certain people.
But, until that time comes, I'll just bite my tongue. 'Cause I'm stuck with… "this"..
. . .
I posted this 4 days ago on a different page of mine and I never got around to posting it here. I know.. I know.. It's basically a rant anyway. I honestly couldn't/cannot help that.
I've looked at myself [lately] and I'm very much unhappy with what I've become. I'm an independent female. I do things by myself. Always have. I don't ask for help and I'm too hard-headed and stubborn to accept it.
When I get my Driver's License, I'll be able to do MORE things by myself. As I'd been doing before. I'll be able to drive around when I need to cool off. I'll be able to explore on my own.
I haven't been able to draw lately because of the negative environment I'm currently in. I like to draw in a spacious place. A place where I can relax and draw comfortably. I like to draw when I'm in a good mood, with my music playing after I've read [a bunch of] comics/manga by my favorite Artist(s) and snacks are right within reach. But that is not the case where I am.
My Dorm room is very small and cluttered due to the fact that I have nowhere to put anything. My boyfriend's apartment is… just that. His apartment. Not my own. He only moved in not too long ago, but it's still not comfortable enough a place for me to get any serious drawing done.
I'm looking forward to getting an apartment of my own. I will have plenty of space, my own furniture, my own refrigerator.. My style.
A lot of things have been happening in my life lately that's causing me to be more stressed than I ever have been. Hell, it's even starting to take a toll on me physically.
My new work schedule has made it hard for me to have much free time (despite the fact that I work Nights and I'm not really doing anything anyway). Even on my days off, I don't have the time. Why? Because I'm with my boyfriend or running around back and forth running errands. Before I know it, it's either time for me to go to bed or time to get ready for work.
Lately, I've been feeling that I have no direction in my life. I don't know what I'm doing or what my purpose is. I have no current goals, no motivation and no inspiration whatsoever.
I'm often finding myself thinking back on all the mistakes I've made and the choices I didn't make. Wishing I had have done things differently..
My relationship is one of the things stressing me out as well. But I'm not even going to get into that right now because that is a whole other story/topic and I'm trying NOT to think about all that mess.
Anyway, I need space to clear my head, get things done and figure out what direction I'm going in. Because, right now, I'm stuck… and it's making me depressed/miserable.
I will also attempt to catch up with my drawing. I just need to find the right positive environment.
Thank you guys for taking the time to read this (if you did). Until next time. L8r.
~ Katt
I can't wait to get my Driver's License, so I can drive my-damn-self around. I can't wait until I'm eligible to move out of the Dorms, so I can [maybe] FINALLY get the space I need to clear my head. So I can finally get some drawing done without feeling fucking guilty about what I draw around certain people.
But, until that time comes, I'll just bite my tongue. 'Cause I'm stuck with… "this"..
. . .
I posted this 4 days ago on a different page of mine and I never got around to posting it here. I know.. I know.. It's basically a rant anyway. I honestly couldn't/cannot help that.
I've looked at myself [lately] and I'm very much unhappy with what I've become. I'm an independent female. I do things by myself. Always have. I don't ask for help and I'm too hard-headed and stubborn to accept it.
When I get my Driver's License, I'll be able to do MORE things by myself. As I'd been doing before. I'll be able to drive around when I need to cool off. I'll be able to explore on my own.
I haven't been able to draw lately because of the negative environment I'm currently in. I like to draw in a spacious place. A place where I can relax and draw comfortably. I like to draw when I'm in a good mood, with my music playing after I've read [a bunch of] comics/manga by my favorite Artist(s) and snacks are right within reach. But that is not the case where I am.
My Dorm room is very small and cluttered due to the fact that I have nowhere to put anything. My boyfriend's apartment is… just that. His apartment. Not my own. He only moved in not too long ago, but it's still not comfortable enough a place for me to get any serious drawing done.
I'm looking forward to getting an apartment of my own. I will have plenty of space, my own furniture, my own refrigerator.. My style.
A lot of things have been happening in my life lately that's causing me to be more stressed than I ever have been. Hell, it's even starting to take a toll on me physically.
My new work schedule has made it hard for me to have much free time (despite the fact that I work Nights and I'm not really doing anything anyway). Even on my days off, I don't have the time. Why? Because I'm with my boyfriend or running around back and forth running errands. Before I know it, it's either time for me to go to bed or time to get ready for work.
Lately, I've been feeling that I have no direction in my life. I don't know what I'm doing or what my purpose is. I have no current goals, no motivation and no inspiration whatsoever.
I'm often finding myself thinking back on all the mistakes I've made and the choices I didn't make. Wishing I had have done things differently..
My relationship is one of the things stressing me out as well. But I'm not even going to get into that right now because that is a whole other story/topic and I'm trying NOT to think about all that mess.
Anyway, I need space to clear my head, get things done and figure out what direction I'm going in. Because, right now, I'm stuck… and it's making me depressed/miserable.
I will also attempt to catch up with my drawing. I just need to find the right positive environment.
Thank you guys for taking the time to read this (if you did). Until next time. L8r.
~ Katt
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Furry (Short)
Found on WereMagnus' journal on FurAffinity: Furry
All you furries out there should take a look. :3
Enjoy!
~ Katt
All you furries out there should take a look. :3
Enjoy!
~ Katt
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Failure and Disappointment
Hey everyone. Just a quick update for you all..
The project I was working on for my job didn't go so well. In fact, it was a complete failure.
Before I go into any details, let me explain the project. My task was to create a T-Shirt design for the annual "Viking Challenge" that's held in my area.
Now for the problems:
1. I wasn't given enough time to complete it. I had to hand in my sketches by March 20th. I did. Despite the fact that it was completely last minute for me. I was all ready to create a finished product off of the design I'd handed in. I just had to wait for the Board to approve my sketches. It took forever for [the guy who requested I do this] to get back to me on their decision. This goes into problem #2.
2. When he got back to me, he told me that the Board liked it but still wanted me to change one thing. I'd originally drawn a Minotaur character. They wanted me to make it Human. Yeah, about that: I'm no good drawing Humans. This is sad, but very true. I can't draw a character that DOESN'T have animal characteristics. That's just what I'm used to. I apologize if that's any inconvenience. Knowing this led me into problem #3.
3. This "change" wasn't just something I could do overnight. The initial design didn't fit "Human". So I basically had to change it again. Once again, I wasn't given enough time to complete this task. By the time he'd gotten back to me, I had to switch my work shift from Days to Nights. My schedule was thrown completely off. He wanted me to complete it by Monday and I had a bunch of other things I had on my plate.
Okay, that's not really the 3rd problem. My problem was the fact that he sent out a mass e-mail about this project to EVERYONE. Meanwhile, he really hand picked me specifically to do the job. It's not that I wasn't honored, but come on! Extremely short deadline + something I'm not used to drawing + 12-hour shifts (where I have maybe 4 hours a day to myself) = Seriously??
What really bothered me was the fact that I was the ONLY one doing this. What if I didn't come up with anything in the first place? Then what? You had absolutely nothing to fall back on.
Anyway, I wound up giving up in the end. That's where the disappointment comes in. I am extremely disappointed in myself. I am an Artist. I'm supposed to learn all I can when it comes to drawing. Still life, Human anatomy, Landscape and using different mediums. Instead, I got comfortable in this lil' niche and that's where I want to stay..
Ever since I gave up on that project, I've been feeling really down. I have ad absolutely no motivation to draw anything. Not even to doodle. I'm trying to get out of that slump so I can start working on all the Requests and Art Trades I owe.
I want your opinions. All of you. What do you think I should do?
~ Katt
The project I was working on for my job didn't go so well. In fact, it was a complete failure.
Before I go into any details, let me explain the project. My task was to create a T-Shirt design for the annual "Viking Challenge" that's held in my area.
Now for the problems:
1. I wasn't given enough time to complete it. I had to hand in my sketches by March 20th. I did. Despite the fact that it was completely last minute for me. I was all ready to create a finished product off of the design I'd handed in. I just had to wait for the Board to approve my sketches. It took forever for [the guy who requested I do this] to get back to me on their decision. This goes into problem #2.
2. When he got back to me, he told me that the Board liked it but still wanted me to change one thing. I'd originally drawn a Minotaur character. They wanted me to make it Human. Yeah, about that: I'm no good drawing Humans. This is sad, but very true. I can't draw a character that DOESN'T have animal characteristics. That's just what I'm used to. I apologize if that's any inconvenience. Knowing this led me into problem #3.
3. This "change" wasn't just something I could do overnight. The initial design didn't fit "Human". So I basically had to change it again. Once again, I wasn't given enough time to complete this task. By the time he'd gotten back to me, I had to switch my work shift from Days to Nights. My schedule was thrown completely off. He wanted me to complete it by Monday and I had a bunch of other things I had on my plate.
Okay, that's not really the 3rd problem. My problem was the fact that he sent out a mass e-mail about this project to EVERYONE. Meanwhile, he really hand picked me specifically to do the job. It's not that I wasn't honored, but come on! Extremely short deadline + something I'm not used to drawing + 12-hour shifts (where I have maybe 4 hours a day to myself) = Seriously??
What really bothered me was the fact that I was the ONLY one doing this. What if I didn't come up with anything in the first place? Then what? You had absolutely nothing to fall back on.
Anyway, I wound up giving up in the end. That's where the disappointment comes in. I am extremely disappointed in myself. I am an Artist. I'm supposed to learn all I can when it comes to drawing. Still life, Human anatomy, Landscape and using different mediums. Instead, I got comfortable in this lil' niche and that's where I want to stay..
Ever since I gave up on that project, I've been feeling really down. I have ad absolutely no motivation to draw anything. Not even to doodle. I'm trying to get out of that slump so I can start working on all the Requests and Art Trades I owe.
I want your opinions. All of you. What do you think I should do?
~ Katt
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