A New Start (Goodbye Everyone)..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xzU9Qqdqww&playnext_from=TL&videos=sfpM0jz0EPQ

Kid Cudi - “Pursuit of Happiness”

VERSE 1:
Crush a bit. Lil’ bit.
Roll it up.. Take a hit.
Feelin’ lit. Feelin’ light.
2 a.m. ..summer night.
I don't care.. Hand on the wheel.. Drivin’ drunk, I'm doin’ my thang.
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life. Getting’ out dreams.
People told me slow my roll. I'm screamin’ out “fuck that!”
I’mma do just what I want. Lookin’ ahead, no turnin’ back.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived it to the fullest.
If I fall.. If I die.. know I lived and missed some bullets.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat)

VERSE 2:
Tell me what you know about dreamin’. Dreamin’.
You don't really know about nothing’. Nothin’.
Tell me what you know about them night terrors… every night.
5 a.m.. Cold sweats.. Wakin’ up to the skies.
Tell me what you know about dreams. Dreams.
Tell me what you know about night terrors.. Nothin’.
You don't really care about the trials of tomorrow.
Rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow.

CHORUS:
I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know..
Everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.
I'll be fine… once I get it. I'll be good. (repeat 4 more times)

ENDING:
Pursuit of happiness.. Yeah.
I don’t get it.. I’ll be… good.

(*Note: I know I could’ve used SO many other songs for this matter, but this right on the money. Werd, Kid Cudi’s on a ROLL! Lol.)

Hey everyone,

This is going to be the last I post for a while. If you read my previous entry, then you guys know that I’m going in to the Military. I leave home tomorrow and then for Basic Training on Tuesday. Just so you guys know, I will not be online for a very long time (7 to 8 months at least).
People have been asking me WHY I’ve decided to do such a thing. There’s plenty of reasons for it, but if you MUST know:

1. My whole life, I’ve cared about others.. Done for others.. Made sure that everyone else was happy. Not once have I done something for myself to make me happy. Besides, it’s not like many of them have ever done the same for me. Not that I’m going to stop caring for my friends.. But from now on, I come first when it comes to making decisions.

2. I have been living in the same friggen’ place I grew up in all my life. Seriously, it’s like a trap. No one ever leaves. Plus, the majority of my Family thinks it’s required to live in the same place with your siblings until their all 21. I don’t think like that. I like to travel to new places and meet new people. Being cooped up here playing “Momma/Maid” is not what I plan on doing for the next 7-8 years of my life.
I look forward to leaving… for GOOD this time (I fucked it up last time in 2007-08).

3. I miss having a solid routine. Getting up at a certain time (in the early morning) and having a full schedule for the day.. Thus EARNING the need to fall asleep at night. For the past couple of years, I’ve had no such thing and it drove me crazy (on the inside).
I know, I know.. I could’ve gotten a job or something. But that would still require me coming back to this Hell Hole I currently call “Home”.

4. There’s too many memories here in NY. Most of them bad. ..And most of them in this apartment alone. The fact that I’ve been sleeping in the same bed where 3 of my beloved Family members passed away in for the past 2 years isn’t very comforting.

And 5. Ever feel like you just don’t belong? Well, that’s how it is with me here. To tell you the truth, I haven’t felt “at Home” here since my Father passed 3 years ago. I don’t really think I need to elaborate on that.

I’d like to apologize for those of you that I may have owed Art to or that wanted to do an Art Trade with me. No, I did not forget. Nor was I ignoring you. I hope you guys can understand what I’ve been going through the past few months.
I’d like to thank everyone for their support on this matter. For the tips and advice.. For all your kind words of encouragement and votes of confidence. It’s all very much appreciated. For those of you I got to see (in person) the past couple of weeks, thank you so much. For those I didn’t get to see one last time… well, I pray we’ll meet sometime in the future (I‘ll be keeping my promises too. You guys know who you are ;3). I’m definitely going to miss you all. You have NO idea how much.

I’m looking forward to what awaits me from tomorrow on.
Sucks, I’m gonna miss all the good Summer movies though. XD
And I can just iMAgine how much stuff I’m gonna find in my Inbox when I finally DO get back online.. >>;
Ho boy.. Well, I’m gonna cut it here before I start rambling or get emotional (lol). I’ll never forget you all… *hugz all around*

Goodbye everyone! See you on the other side.

~ BoKo

P.S. - I’d like to give a big “Thank You” Shout Out to Debra E. in Ohio for her kind and encouraging words to me on my Post last week. I will definitely keep your words in mind. :)

Heads-up Everyone.. In 7 Days...

…I’m leaving. I know I’ve been saying this for the longest, lol. Well, it’s about time I let you all know why.
Yours truly joined the Air Force as of late November last year. I am to leave for BT (Basic Training) next week Tuesday.
I’d like to apologize for the lack of Art lately. I’ve been busy making sure I’ve taken care of all important things so nothing goes wrong when I leave.
Now all I have to do is make sure everything I want taken with me (after training) is packed. I’m also hoping to visit all my friends one last time before I leave. I’ll visit my son too (and give him his Father’s love… as requested).
I’m not exactly sure as to when I’ll be able to access a computer again. My guess is mid-November. Hopefully I’ll have new information by Friday. I’ll post another Journal on Sunday.
Until then, l8r all!

~ BoKo

I'm Back (for the Time Being)! :D

So my connection came back a few days ago! Yei! I wanted to say so sooner, but I was trying to wait until I had something to post before I did so. ^^; Otherwise, I’m glad it’s back. No longer do I have to use that other connection or sit stone still in one awkward position in order to check even ONE of my pages. I swear that connection hated me. It go so bad to the point where it wouldn’t even let me connect at all after a point. But now, it’s over (finally).

Now before I move onto what’s happening with me now, I’d like to address a couple of things.
First is FormSpring. I say fuck it. It’s the worst and most retarded bandwagon anyone could jump onto. Seriously? I site where people anonymously ask you questions.. Does that sound right to you? God forbid someone asks you a disturbing or suspicious question… you won’t even know who the fuck did it! Yeah, sure you can ignore the question (and probably delete it), but wouldn’t it still bother you..? All in all, I’m not joining it. I think it’s a mistake and I’m tired of seeing all my friends and whatnot announcing that they have one (with all the various quotes of “ask me anything” or “hit me with your best shot” or what have ‘em).

Second is the iPad. . . . Seriously!? What more junk can Apple possibly come out with after this? I mean, it’s basically just all of their products combined. You can listen to music on it, watch movies, add and share photos and have your contacts on it (iPod/iPhone). You can type on it, send e-mail, surf the web and watch videos from YouTube(Notebook). You can read books (and whatever else.. They probably have an App for it). So what’s the point? Yeah it may sound convenient to some people, but I just find it to be another way to waste money. I mean.. I already HAVE an iPod, a touch-screen phone, a laptop… and if I wanted to read a book, there’s BOOKSTORES for that!!
..I see that you can draw on it like a tablet as well… IF you download the proper App/program. I have a Tablet for that. All in all, I’m not so excited about the iPad. I may change my mind in the future (when I can probably afford it, lol), but that won’t be anytime soon.

Sorry about that everyone. I’ve just been seeing so many Journals about FormSpring and the iPad for the past… God knows how long and it’s been steadily getting on my nerves. So now for the real update. :3

I’ve been basically juggling/working on various projects at the same time lately. I have 3 story ideas I’m writing. 4 (maybe 5) comic ideas I’m doin’ up. There’s old ideas for pics that I have yet to get down on paper at all and a couple of other things I can’t really remember at the moment. So yeah, posting is gonna be slow. I want to have as much done in the next 14 days as I can though. Which leads me to the next part of my update..

I’m also getting ready to start packing. As much as I’d like to get into detail about “why”, I can’t at the moment. I’m sorry guys.. You’ll have to be patient for a little more longer. I’ll most likely spill the beans next week.

Otherwise, that’s really all I have to report for now. Gonna try and get some stuff done today. *hugs to all* Until next time. L8r!

~ BoKo

April Foolz & No Internetz

First I’d like to say: I know today is April Fool’s Day. I log onto DeviantArt and find that my Avatar is changed to some Lady Gaga shit. I immediately think I’ve been hacked and that they think they’re fucking funny. ..Until I scroll down to my Page comments and see that everyone’s Avi(s) are changed as well to things like: “Team Edward” (or something with the sparkly bastard). “Team Jacob” (or something with him). “Team Seeker” (..I don’t even know what the fuck that one’s from). ..Or Lady Gaga. After seeing this, the only thing I could wonder was: “Why Lady Gaga? Why not Team Jacob?” No, I’m not a Lady Gaga fan. I may have a couple of her songs (like 3), but she’s not a big deal to me. : /

I’m not so thrilled about today being April Fool’s Day. I’m literally avoiding everyone’s Journals because apparently, everyone’s trying to be funny in their own little way. I take things too seriously to take a joke most the time. I’ll be glad when this Month is over (yeah, I said “Month”. I can’t stand April).
I was already “fooled” by someone today and once is enough.

Anyway, the real reason I’m updating was to tell you that my internet has been screwy for the last 5 days. It’s been raining since Saturday evening and I lost my main [Ghost] connection. So unfortunately, I won’t be able to upload anything until it comes back and it’s stable. Hell, the finally came back out yesterday (more like played Hide & Seek the whole day) and my connection basically disappeared altogether! I haven’t been able to OC or play WoW… and I’ve got so many ideas backed up.

Otherwise, I don’t want to make this any longer than it has to be. Just wanted to let you all know that I’ll most likely be staying offline until I get my connection back fully. An easier way to solve this problem would be to get a Wireless Router, but there’s no point.. Being that I’d be the only one using it and I’ll be leaving in less than a Month. Besides, I’ve gone without this whole time. I can go another 26 days (or 7 months).

Thank you all for your patience and support. I truly appreciate it all. *bearhugz* So, until next time.. L8r all!

~ BoKo

Like.. OhMahGawd! I'm A-LIVE Ppl!! [R.I.P. Patrick S. Carlucci]

Yes, people. I’m still alive. I apologize for not updating in a while. There just hasn’t been much to update about. Until now that is.

First, let’s start with the fact that and great Artist has passed away on Wednesday. Patrick S. Carlucci: http://PatCarlucci.deviantart.com passed away yesterday morning after a 5 year battle with Non-Hodgkins lymphoma. He was a very inspiring Artist to me. My condolences have gone out to his Wife, family and dear friends. Other journal entries have been posted about this sad tragedy as well:

Pat’s Wife: http://patcarlucci.deviantart.com/journal/31081679/

Kermit L. Gonzalez: http://kermitlgonzalez.deviantart.com/journal/31092548/

Matthew Humphreys: http://americanninjax.deviantart.com/journal/31082034/

Mike Henry: http://zatransis.deviantart.com/journal/31085099/

Pedro Delgado: http://greatlp.deviantart.com/journal/31090452/

Scotty Shoemaker: http://scottyshoemaker.deviantart.com/journal/31082943/

Sean Galloway: http://cheeks-74.deviantart.com/journal/31097716/

Steven Sanchez: http://stevensanchez.deviantart.com/journal/31082619/

Tim Townsend: http://timtownsend.deviantart.com/journal/31083938/

..And those are just the Artists I follow.

Now down to business. It’s getting down to “crunch-time” for me. I’ve been really stressing myself about what’s gonna happen next month and all the things I’ve gotta get done. For the past several weeks, I’ve been cleaning out my room and hitting the gym. Not to mention I’m trying to go for my Learner’s Permit, so studying has to get squeezed in along with cooking and other various things. ..And I’ll have to start packing next month… Ugh.

In my spare time, I have been trying to get back into writing stories. I’m not sure if I’ll be posting them or anything though. I just happened to be reading one of my old stories last week and remembered so many ideas I’ve had for like… years. I haven’t written a story (and completed it) since 2006.

Aaand that’s all there is for now. So until next time, l8r.

~ BoKo

R.I.P. Nujabes

About a week and a half ago, I found out that one of my favorite Music Artists, Nujabes ( Jun Seba), passed away. Not only that, but that he passed away LAST MONTH (February 26th) in a car accident. WTF!!
For those of you who don't know who he is, here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nujabes I know him as the guy who did the music for the famous Anime, "Samurai Champloo". There's not much for me to say on the subject now, being that it's been happened.
I made a music playlist in memory of him (called "Ode to Nujabes"). I might post a link to it (via Playlist.com ). R.I.P. Nujabes. You and your talent will definitely be missed. It's such a shame your life had to be cut short.

~ BoKo

It's 10 o'Clock.. Do You Know Where YOUR Liars Are??

So.. I woke up in the mornin’ feelin’ like P. Di- *gets slapped*

Anyway, I rolled outta bed at 10 this morning. Not 10 minutes later, do I hear the phone ring. As soon as it does, a warning that says: “XXX Area Code! Don’t pick up!!!” I go to check the caller ID and, sure enough, it WAS that Area Code. But despite my subconscious’ warning, my curiosity compelled me to pick up the phone.
Sure enough, it was the person I thought it was. To make a short story even shorter, the convo didn’t even last a minute. Request denied and click. I will not go into details about what was said. Though my point is: I don’t need anymore [fresh] bullshit. Especially not beginning so early in the morning… AND especially NOT from that person.
Still recovering from the events that happened yesterday… and then this jerkwad crawls from under his rock. Fucking pathetic. *sighs* OTHERWISE… I just wanted to get that off my chest. Gonna go kill something in WoW. Maybe draw al little something too. Any o’ you peeps want teh detz, lemme know via PM (or IM). So, ‘til next time.. L8r.

~ BoKo

What Good is a Broken Heart..?

"So what good are you?" said the woman to her Broken Heart.

No seriously, I'd really like to know. 'Cause it seems that all it's good for is making me feel even worse than I already do by having me repeat mistakes that basically came from it.
And since mine has been broken like... I dunno how many times, I'm not even sure I can trust it. So could someone please tell me: Why do I even bother at times..?

~ BoKo

Rant: Disgusted

Been a while since I've done this. : /

Anyway, I'm disgusted. In myself. The fact that I feel the way I do about certain things doesn't make me feel any better about myself. On the other hand, I could really care less.
So, once again, I got ahead of myself when it comes to my feelings. People say that distance shouldn't matter and what not, but I find that to be false. In my case, I'd want (and prefer) physical contact with the person I am interested in. There's only so much I can do with a person over the internet. And it does get extremely more lonely in a long-distance relationship (depending on the situation).
Some people say that looks don't matter, it's what's on the inside. Pfft.. Yeah right. Only in fairytales people. For me, you can have a nice personality and what not, but I still go for good looks too you know. I still have standards... and being what those standards are, some people might say I'm being picky. You know what? Oh well.
I'm not looking to get married... ever. But I would like to have someone I know is gonna be there for me. A companion of sorts. I wish I could explain it better, but I'm in the worst condition to be explaining anything clearly right now. I'm just letting you all know how I feel.
From now on, if I'm gonna meet someone... I'm gonna do it face to face. AND I'm gonna go by MY standards. I'm sorry that feelings were hurt and what not, but at this point... I don't care. That's the other part of myself I'm disgusted about and I'm not about to go into anymore detail.
Now, I don't know those of you reading this may think of me afterwards.. But if you got something to say, you come to me and tell me upfront. I just had to get this off my chest due to recent events that have been going on for the past week.
In fact, because of what happened, I am now reassured that I’m really not girlfriend material. Either that, or maybe I’m not fit to have certain relationships (like serious ones, maybe?). Even if that’s true, I can live with it. ’Cause it’s me, you know? It’s how I am when it comes to things like that. And until the “right guy” comes along, then I don’t really see any point in changing it.
Another reason I maybe feeling the way I do right now could be because of the fact that Valentine’s Day is coming up and it’s pissing me the fuck off more than it usually would. Why? ’Cause this year, it’s literally everywhere. In the stores. In the newspapers, magazines. On the internet. On television. ON FRIGGEN’ GAMES!!! Yeah, that last one was the last straw.. Seriously. All this pink in the air is makin’ people act stupid and it’s makin’ me sick.
I guess, I just happen to get in this type of mood (or frame of mind) around this time of the year (this and Christmas). But seriously, everything I said above was the truth. I find it ridiculous that I’ve even lost sleep over all of this. I probably wouldn’t feel this way if I didn’t go through all the shit I did (when it came to relationships) in the past 2 years or if I had someone [HERE] with me that I could show my affection towards. But due to the circumstances, I’m ranting. ..Okay, I'm done now.

~ BoKo

OC Cuddle Collage

Cuddle pics put into a Collage from the last OC Sessions I had with my darling Tora-kun. Luv you baby! <3

~ BoKo

Playing Catch-Up..

Hey everybody. Being that I’ve been so busy lately running around and taking care of a bunch of important stuff, I’ve basically been playing catch-up with my Art these days. My daily routine isn’t as stable as I should be but things are getting better. The more stuff I put out of the way, the more time I have to get some work done. Hope you enjoyed this week’s batch! To tell you the truth, I’m not very proud of them. I had fun working on them though but I feel as though I could’ve done much better. I’ll do my best for next week! I won’t be rushing this time either. I’m decided to edit and draft everything out the day before I post so that way I’ll have everything in order come Post-Day. :3
I’d like to apologize again. I know I said I was going to be posting up a couple of Cover Arts. I’m still working on them. I’m just a little stuck when it comes to ideas right now. I’ve got a little problem that’s been stressing me out the past week. Nothing major, but I might have to see a Doctor about it just to be sure. Otherwise, I’d like to thank everyone out there for the luverly comments, watches and favs! Your support is most appreciated! :3
Until next time everyone! L8r!

~ Katt

I Have a Problem.. (Pt. 2)

I made one last connection about my Hoarding problem last night: Dragons will find even the smallest piece of Gold and throw it into their pile. They don’t like when an outsider takes any of it either. They can definitely tell when even the smallest bit has gone missing. They’ll fight to the death to get it back too.
This does pertain to me. Everything I keep, I know exactly when something has been moved or taken. I will get upset when I find a possession of mine in someone else’s hands (even if they’re my own siblings). Hell, I’m even wary of letting people BORROW my pens! ‘Cause I have a feeling they won’t give it back or they’ll lose it… and I love ALL my pens. ;w;
But that’s not the point I’m trying to get at here. Yesterday, I decided to remove my Art from a few old galleries I used to have (SheezyArt and Eka’s Portal). In the process, I managed to access my oldest e-mail accounts. A lot of unread e-mails and spam had piled up over the YEARS of me not using them. Hell, I was surprised they even worked anymore.
After cleaning out all of that, I then proceeded to clean out the rest of the e-mails. Upon which, I found old e-mails from my High School years. E-mails from… people I held dear to me. All sent in a time where there was new love and old friendships that went sour. Back and forth arguing and apologizing.
As I went through everything, I did my best not to break down. I couldn’t believe that those e-mails still existed. They dated back to 2005... After seeing all this, I remembered one person I miss more than anything right now. Despite the fact that I said what I said for my New Year’s Resolutions, I will speak his name: David D. Doucet ( a-k-a Dalon Louviere).
I miss him, I truly do. I probably shouldn’t after all that he’s done to humiliate me, but I can’t help it. I still think about him. I still worry about him and hope he’s okay… doing well.. A part of me still loves him deeply and misses talking to him. Having him there for me was… well… it was good.
Anyway, by coming to this conclusion, I realized that my Hoarding problem isn’t just with material possessions. It also has to deal with… people (for lack of a better way to put it). I never like to lose a friendship with anyone, no matter what may’ve happened. I admit this almost all the time. If anything, I still like to keep in Contact. Because, despite everything, I still care about them… and I never did stop caring.

*sighs* I need to work on this as well. Unless I want to continue going through life with a back-breaking load of expired Emotional baggage. : /

Miss you David! Wherever you are.. Whatever you’re doing.. Know that I DO still love you and miss you.

~ BoKo

I Have a Problem..

I don’t really have a very organized way to say this, so I’ll just say it. I have a problem. The fact that it took me so long to figure out what it was exactly (to put it all together), makes me feel even worse for a reason I can’t quite explain.
I figured it out last week Monday when a certain episode of “Hoarders” came on at 11 p.m. In this particular episode (#9: Chris and Dale), a female name Chris began surrounding herself with possessions to fill in a void after losing her newborn son.
Once I saw that, not only could I no longer continue to watch the episode… but I also made a connection. With this, I figured out the reason as to why the left side of my bed is always covered in clutter, no matter what. My son passed away on the left side of the bed I now sleep in. The bed that used to belong to my Father… who also passed away on the left side of the bed.
I realize that no matter how many times I clean off that side of the bed, it will just pile right back up with clothing, books, stuffed animals, mail and other things I decide to throw on top of it all.

A few days after that night, I made another connection. This one seems even more sillier than the last, but bare with me. The name of the show is called “Hoarders”. I thought of my Chinese Astrological sign: The Dragon. Dragons are Hoarders too. They hoard Gold, but it’s still Hoarding none-the-less!
After figuring that out, I looked around my room again and figured this has to be the reason as to why I collect so many pens. Why I continue to buy sketchbooks when there’s so many I have yet to use. Why there’s a huge pile of Plastic grocery bags in one corner of my room…
Realizing this made me a little concerned for myself. If I’m already doing this, what else am I going to start keeping unconsciously? I don’t want my room to become a huge junk pile. I can barely move around as it is! Part of that is due to the fact that I have nowhere to put any of my things. Being that the room belonged to my Father before me, his stuff is still everywhere. So my things can only be placed upon the surface.

This is a problem. I need to seriously work it too before it gets any worse. Although I do know that what I’m doing in the near future will definitely help. *sigh* Damn my natural habits..

~ BoKo

My Song for 2010

Here’s my song for 2010:

Kid Cudi - “Up Up and Away”

Now when the sun come up,
I'll be there to say what up
in the morning. Brush my teeth
find that clip I've been lookin’
for since last night.
I feel so caught up in a bud.
I float somehow in my bedroom turn around. see myself in the mirror
I guess I'm cool. And
Those happy thoughts, in my head, I'm feeling like I'm peter pan.. Minus the tights and the fairies. Happy to see how far I've come. To the same place it began my dreams and imagination perfectly at peace.. So I move along a bit higher.

[Chorus]
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause they gon' judge me anyway so whatever.
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause in the end they'll judge me any so whatever.

Higher learn, I’ve seen the dreams I’ve made so I'm cooler now,
I could take care of my mom
And my little niece Zuri so..
Sing along lil' mama you ain’t gotta worry bout no drama no I'll provide for friends and fam and fans. Cleveland city grinder man. Stay afloat. The key is hope
I never let a motherfucka break me dawg. Who gives a fuck if a nigga don't like your steez? Tell ‘em to buzz off your n-u-tz. We don't care what people say. Dudes who critique clothes are most gay.
I ain’t gotta wait for no one.
If I wanna fly, I could fly for freedom. Hey!

[Chorus]
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause they gon' judge me anyway so whatever
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause in the end they'll judge me any so whatever

Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
Wake.. Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
(Yeah!)
Wake.. Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
(We'll be rollin' on up)
Wake.. Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
(We'll be rollin' on up)
Wake.. Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
(We'll be rollin' on up)
Wake.. Wake up wake up wake, wake up.. Wake..
(I be rollin' on up)
Wake up wake up wake, wake up..
(Rollin’ up)

[Chorus]
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause they gon' judge me anyway so whatever.
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause in the end they'll judge me any so whatever.

I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause they gon' judge me anyway so whatever.
I'll be up, up and away..
Up, up and away
‘Cause in the end they'll judge me any so whatever.

Whatever.
So whatever.
Whatever.
So whatever...

[Common's Speech]

The end is never the end. A new challenge awaits. A test no man could be prepared for. A new hell he must conquer and destroy. A new level of growth he must confront himself. The machine in the ghost within. This is the journey of the man on the moon.

I chose this song for the Year of 2010 because from this point on, I will not give a f*ck about what people think about me negatively. ‘Cause if they DO think anything negative of me, it just goes to show that they don’t know a damn thing about me. They don’t know me enough to make such accusations or have not had the pleasure of meeting me in person.
The lyrics to this song represent how I’ve been feeling for a while now. Almost every word, exactly. I’ll be movin’ on and living my life no matter what. ‘Cause there’s always gonna be someone who’s got shit to say about me (or judge me) and there’s really nothin’ I can do about it. As long as I know what I’m doin’ is right and I’ve done no wrong.. As long as I know I’m taking responsibility, providing for my family and being there for my friends.. Then my conscious is clear and I got nothin’ to worry about from nobody.
‘Cause it’s ridiculous to hide from a threat that basically isn’t even there. You all take note of this too, ‘kay? *hugs all around* *deep breath* This is gonna be a good year. ^^

~ BoKo

OH YEAH! Before I forget, here’s my Contacts (for all you who’d like to chat and what not):

AIM: BoKoJaggie09 (I’m on this mostly)
Yahoo! Messenger: Bored_Komix_PCo09@yahoo.com (I only use this for e-mailing, Requests & Art Trade Info)
MSN Messenger: BoKo_Jaggie010@hotmail.com (I use this for chatting occasionally)

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Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone! It's the year 2010. The Year of the Tiger. These were done in honor of that. I like how they came out. Maybe, if my skillz improve any, I'll be able to Color them! Otherwise,enjoy them as they are. ^^

~ BoKo

R.I.P Scottie

It was 10 p.m. on Tuesday, December 29th, 2009.. My sister came into the living room as I was on my laptop about to show my brother a YouTube video and reply to a comment on my FaceBook page. “Olivia!” she said. “Come look! There’s a doggie outside.” I got up and followed her into the kitchen to look out the window that had a view of the street. It was lit up from street lights, vehicle lights, the lights from the bus stop, house lights from the other side of the railroad tracks and flashing lights from the planes flying far off in the distance.
When we both got to the window, my sister pointed out side in the direction of the street. “There”, she said. “It came out of nowhere..” I scanned the street for what she was talking about and I finally found it. It was trotting on the sidewalk. Before I could say anything on the matter, I watched as it began walking towards the street and my hear sank. It was going to try and cross!
My first instinct was to grab my coat and slippers and run out there to try and help it away safely. What stopped me was what my sister might think of me. Going out there for a stray dog would’ve seemed silly. But I knew what was going to happen if I didn’t do anything and in the next moment, it unfortunately came true.
The dog crossed into the street as the cars went zooming by… not even bothering to slow down. I could do nothing but watch as each car nearly hit the poor thing. It wasn’t long before my fears came true. A car collided with the dog’s head [on the left side], leaving him disoriented and causing him to go straight into another car.
My sister was on the phone with her boyfriend at the time and I could here him yelling on the phone. For he was down there in his car, watching this happen as well. As soon as my sister confirmed it was hit, I immediately ran into my room, grabbed my coat, slippers, keys and ran to the door. It may have been too late, but I just had to see for myself…
It was cold outside, but I couldn’t feel any of it due to the mixture of emotions I had coursing through me. I was a block away from the site when I realized that the dog was still breathing. I quickly into the middle of the street. I checked its vitals and told my sis’ bf that it was still alive and to call the ambulance. He did and said they were on their way.
For the next 20 minutes, I steered cars, truck and buses out of the way so that the dog wouldn’t be road-kill by the time the ambulance got their. But the fact that it was taking so long was making me angry. After a while, all I could do was basically watch helplessly as the dog died. I named him Scottie. Yes, I named the stray dog Scottie. The moment I saw the young Border Collie, I was attached. He was healthy for a stray.
When Scottie was no longer breathing, I grew cold. (..Er, temperature-wise.) All I wanted to do at that point was get his body out of the street. With my sis’ bf’s help, I did just that. A cop car cruised along and we let him know what had happened. They said that they’d contact the local ASPCA to come and have him picked up.
I couldn’t stay out there any longer. I went upstairs… and cried. Now, you may think it’s ridiculous of me to have done so, but I truly don’t care. I felt horrible. I felt like I should’ve just gone with my first instinct and run out there as soon as I saw it on the sidewalk. If I’d have been a couple of minutes early, it would still be alive today.
The reason why it effected me so much is because I felt the same way with my son. If I’d have woken up just a little earlier… I hate drivers today. They zoom around as if their destination is going to disappear if they don’t make it on time or whatever. Just like they hit Scottie, they could do the same thing to a small child. It’s horrible!
Everyone, please be safe. Whether you’re behind the wheel or not, be safe. Let’s make 2010 a better year. Happy Holidays everyone. R.I.P. Scottie. I’ll miss you, even if nobody else does.

~ BoKo

It's 2010..

Happy New Year everyone.
I will count this as my first Blog of the New year.
More to come!

~ BoKo